Friday, August 2, 2013

happy friday!

sauce is pro chopper :)
Another week closer to the competition. Yikes! I'm happy to FINALLY be dropping some pounds. I hope this is the beginning of a solid losing streak. Jenn made a few small tweaks to my diet and exercise plan this week and it definitely paid off. It's amazing how much small victories can change your mood! :)

Sauce and I are going to the Quabbin tomorrow for a long walk. It's been such a nuisance to leave the house lately - I almost don't want to go. No matter where I go I need to pack at least two meals. Sometimes I feel kind of weird carrying around my cooler bag everywhere. I guess it's no more strange than eating cold sweet potatoes or oatmeal while I drive... Both skills I've mastered this week.

P.S. - If anyone is reading and wants to buy me a present... I really want this adorable cooler bag!

Sunday, July 28, 2013

14 weeks and counting.

All of my meals are prepped for the next week! I spent some time today cooking cod, salmon, rice, veggies and a whole chicken that I picked up from Spring Ridge Farm in Boylston. It took a few hours to get everything weighed and packed but it makes my lunch packing during the week much quicker. The amount of Rubbermaid containers in the fridge is slightly disturbing.  

This week I'm reducing my carb serving size from 1/2 c. to 1/3 c. since I still haven't lost any weight. I hope this helps get the scale moving! I'm having a hard time staying motivated when I'm not seeing any changes in my appearance. I feel slightly stronger but that's about it. Jenna has been great with keeping me sane and helping me stay focused and I'm grateful for that. I didn't do anything special as a "reward" this weekend, so I might get a quick pedi during lunch this week. 

So far I'm not finding the process as hard as I thought it would be. I'm ready to see what this week brings! 

Thursday, July 25, 2013

15 weeks out!

mad at my dry chicken
I'm sore. I want peanutbutter. I'm sick of feeling puffy. This week still isn't going very well. :(

I have been trying to avoid my nemesis (the scale) and I've done a decent job at that. I just feel very puffy and not any slimmer. I consider myself a pro-dieter, so it's surprising to me that I'm not seeing any changes yet. I'm trying so hard to trust the process and Jenn's coaching abilities but it's draining when I don't feel great. I know I have plenty of time until the competition so I'm trying to stay positive.

Tomorrow we are having lobster at work! I'm excited and will be bringing my food scale to make sure I get my 5 oz. Obsessed? Maybe. I'm thankful my coworkers are supportive and don't try to sabotage me.

Sunday, July 21, 2013

week one = complete

perfect fit for my flippers
I plan on rewarding myself with something non-food related after each successful week. I really needed it after this week's disappointing weigh-in. I've wanted a pair of vibrams for awhile, so this was perfect timing. I went for a walk at lake park right after getting them and was surprised how comfortable the shoes are.

I'm feeling prepared for the coming week. Sauce grilled me lots of chicken and I have some salmon and haddock all portioned out and ready to go. I loved having two rest days this weekend, but I'm ready to get back to the gym tomorrow. I also got a new pink shaker bottle that I can't wait to try out. Ohhh the little things...

Saturday, July 20, 2013


After 5 days of following my bikini competition diet/exercise plan, I figured my weight would have gone down a bit or at least stayed the same. This was not the case. ugh. After meeting with Jenn today and weighing in, I'm up about 2 lbs! How is this possible? I'm feeling so discouraged. This is not at all how I expected the first week to go. I did the workouts, followed the plan and got no results. I did get crazy with my eating and drinking last Saturday night, but I thought that wouldn't have affected today's weigh in. Anyway - I'm cranky and feeling miserable. I'm hoping the next week goes better.

Thursday, July 18, 2013

eating vs life

After waiting an absurdly long time, I finally have an in-person interview tomorrow for a job that I really really really want! Fingers crossed.

The one problem: interview is at 12:30...

Don't they know that is when I eat meal 3?! I'm going to pack my cooler with some meals and try to arrange my eating schedule around the interview. With temperatures in the 90's, I'm worried that all of my precious food might go bad in the car. Do I try to disguise my huge cooler-bag and bring it in to my interview? Or try to get something that fits my meal plan at a restaurant after? Or wait until I'm home to eat? I don't want any more stress on top of already being nervous for my interview. I know that preparation is key to success, so I will do my best, but UGH!

Balancing a normal life with my eating schedule is something that worries me. I'm hoping it gets easier the further along I get. I don't like having to live by these certain times that I need to eat, but I realize it's necessary. Wah.

Cheers! happy hour, locker room style.
Legs day was super long yesterday. Jenna and I were at the gym for almost two hours! It was surprisingly enjoyable, minus a weird pain in my butt/leg area. We are doing an awesome job at keeping this as fun as possible. Even though having a drink together now means chugging some foamy protein shake rather than enjoying a refreshing cosmo...

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Eating like a...

...giant man? or bikini competitor. I will soon find out at this week's weigh in!

We discovered that there are actually 16 weeks left until the competition...math geniuses?! Not. So I don't have to officially follow the plan yet, but coach Jenn thought it would be a good idea to help get used to the eating schedule.

It's been an interesting adjustment. Five small meals every three hours doesn't sound like much food, but trust me, it is. Almost to the point where I'm sick of eating. Don't get me wrong, I'd love some junk food-ish snacks, or even a protein bar - but - that ain't happenin' anytime soon. I'll need to be more creative with my meal prep next week because I'm already sick of chicken.
Jenna and I worked out with coach Jenn on Monday. Definitely a rude awakening as to what the term "lift heavy" means. I know I'm not the strongest person, but I had a much harder time than I thought. Slightly embarassing. I'm nervous about maintaining the desire to workout when it hurts to sneeze/brush my hair/drive. Here's to hoping this all gets easier soon!

My best concotion so far. Homemade salsa, cilantro lime rice and steamed green beans!
My pre-bedtime meal. Blueberry cream casein powder. I tried drinking it as a shake, but it tasted like I was drinking glue. The "pudding" I made was slightly less gag-inducing.caption

Thursday, July 11, 2013

everyone has to start somewhere

the only pic of me in a bikini you'll see for awhile!
This is something I will be telling myself repeatedly over the next 14 weeks as I go through my journey from a regular gal to a first time bikini competitor. 

Tomorrow morning I meet with Coach Jenn and training officially begins! We will be taking "before" pics (yikes) and going over the diet, training plan, supplements, etc. This is the moment I've been anxiously awaiting the past three months. It seems so long ago that I started talking with Jenna about competing! I'm grateful that we are doing this together. 

I'm feeling excited and really motivated. I can't wait to get going and in a routine. I planned on making some type of vision/motivation board, but haven't gotten around to that yet... Hopefully within the next week I can get going on creating some type of motivational stuff. I know I'll need it. I want to make sure I do everything in my power to set myself up for success. I know this will mean skipping social events that undoubtedly will revolve around eating and drinking and distancing myself from friends and family who aren't supportive. I'm worried about becoming a social reject/hermit, but getting on stage and feeling great in a bikini for the first time ever will totally be worth any sacrifices. I have a good idea of who I can count on to support me - so let's hope they stick by my through my journey!